My life story and healing journey, “Don’t Shoot the Souls’ Messengers” could be likened to a piece of Swiss cheese, riddled with holes, better with age and tasty to the last morsel through seemingly insurmountable acts of courage and adversity. Betrayed by my family of origin through emotional abuse and neglect, raped at the age of seventeen by an unsuspecting perpetrator, traversing the mine fields of San Francisco’s Vietnam anti war era, navigating the treacherous 60’s Haight Ashbury drug revolution and being utilized as a ramrod by the corporate machine as a high level executive, survival seemed tenuous, especially for a highly sensitive, intuitive old soul. Transformation from super woman to spiritual warrior unfolded in a convoluted and unexpected way after running headlong into a long term chronic illness which shattered my sense of identity and forced a crises that dismantled all of my self myths and propelled me onto a battlefield for the fight of my life. How I fought my way through the wreckage and back to a place of wholeness and grace became a miraculous feat undertaken with perseverance and tenacity. The ever changing internal landscape and the deep shadow psyche work is not for the fain of heart, but worth every stone that was unturned. Through my story, I have given a voice to all those who are silently suffering with a physical illness that began as whisperings from the soul, but remained unheard and lead to a spiritual crises which eventually manifested in the physical body.
I am a retired corporate vice president, registered nurse, certified holistic life coach, Reiki practitioner, freelance artist and author and a mother and grandmother. I have resided all over the country, including Hawaii for four years, all of which fueled my lifelong study of human behavior and interpersonal relationships. Analytical by nature, my travels into the deepest recesses of the unconscious mind aided me in discovering what motivates and drives our impulses and patterned behaviors. It was all part of the journey back to my true and authentic self, which had been largely obliterated by life’s trauma, pain and sorrow.
This powerful and compelling story is engaging and written straight from the heart. It arouses deep emotions and invites the reader to explore their deepest inner world from a place of compassion versus contempt, bitterness and negativity. Please join me on this journey of peeling away a lifetime of layers to a place of self-discovery, acceptance and a cracked open heart.
Don’t Shoot the Soul’s Messengers is available in 2018 from HenschelHAUS Publishing, Inc.
